BROKEN HEART

Hi, is your heart okay?

I am not. I'm hurting.

Sometimes it’s hard to give up on someone, especially when you love them. Sometimes you can't force someone to be in your life because they don’t want to be there. Sometimes you can’t just tell them to stay, even though you really want them to, and here’s why.

You feel like the universe is asking you to be a little more patient and wait a little longer. You’re secretly hoping that maybe they’ll change their mind. You crossed borders and swam across seas to give them what they want in the hopes of them gravitating back towards your life. And you really hope that’s the case, but sadly it’s not. Maybe it just wasn’t meant to be.

Being uncertain of our own fate is nerve-racking. As humans, we initially believe in the positive outcomes that come as a result of enduring these predicaments. We think that life will reward us with something great whenever times get rough. In this case we believe that holding on to them a little bit longer will make them stay. 

Of course sometimes you can’t help but reminisce on the past and wonder what went wrong, what happened, what did I do? We’re human and yes, it’s normal to feel this way. You are not a weak person for loving someone. But do yourself a favor and let go. It can get hard sometimes and the desire of starting over with them will always be there.

But you have to be strong enough to let go of someone who doesn’t want to be held, for your sake. A few months of sadness is better than a lifetime of pain.

It is sad when people you know become people you knew. When you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life just like how you used to be able to talk for hours how now you can barely even look at them.

You have hurt my feelings, you have broke my heart. i give you my time, i give you my trust, but you left me alone.

~ cheeky ania ~
11 December 2019 (2nd entry)